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1. Who was your first crush? His name was Fergus McInnes. He lived in my village with his grandmother. He had bright red hair and followed me everywhere when I visited my uncle. One day when I was gathering herbs to make a healing tonic, he snuck up on me and kissed me, knocking me down and spilling the roots that I had gathered all over the place! Then the stroppy little bastard ran away and didnae help me pick them back up again. Needless to say my ‘crush’ didnae last.

2. Are you an introvert or an extrovert? I think I am introverted, though I find no problem striking up a conversation with nearly everyone. I tend to ask a great many questions, for that is how one finds out what you need to know.

3. What is your favorite non-sexual thing you like to do with the love of your life? Conversation. I love to talk to him. No matter what we are doing, we always find time to talk. I would have to say that one of my favourite things ever, is to have him talk me to sleep. Perhaps it is the quality of his voice that I find so soothing. Sometimes, however, the conversations we have are not at all verbal. A lot can be conveyed in a gaze or even a glance. In the years that Sebastien and I were together, we mastered all of those forms of communication, I think.

4. Name one quirky habit your partner does that either annoys you or makes you grin. He will let me go on about something, particularly when I am upset. He will sit with the eyebrow of one eye quirked upward, with what is possibly a look of seriousness or even mild amusement. When I am finished he continues the conversation as if my ranting were nothing more than a hiccup! I have found annoying in the past, but now I find myself greatly relieved that he does this. If he wanted to make me feel a fool, he very well could. But he doesn’t.

5. Do you believe in monogamous relationships? Yes, I do. Although I have always believed that most creatures are not monogamous by nature.

For myself, however, when I decide to be with someone, truly with them, and especially when there are oaths involved, then I am with that person alone. Though temptation inevitably will present itself, I will never betray that bond for the time once the commitment has been made. Only the weakest of beings would fall away from such commitments. Within that there must be a certain level of trust or it is all for naught.

I do not necessarily believe in marriage. There was something to the idea for us, the person whom I am with, that we needed neither a priestly edict or a piece of paper to ‘prove’ our love and commitment to each other. Indeed, I think that at any given time, neither myself or my lovers ever saw anything at all wrong with welcoming others to our bed for mutual acts of love and pleasure. This of course would be done with full knowledge between us and rather enjoyable when we were with each other at the time.

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If you could pick anyone in the world, alive or dead, to be your parents, who would it be and why?

I really have no desire to have any other mother than the one that I had. Moira MacKay was a good woman. Her only crime was innocence and inexperience in the ways of the world – particularly the world of the Fae and the way that things can often be. I don’t remember very much of my mother. She died when I was only four. But what I do remember of her is that she was very kind. I remember she used to sing to the plants and the trees. I never knew her to ever utter a single word in anger to anyone – especially not to me. Why would I wish for anyone else other than her? My only wish is that she had been my mother longer than she was.

My father, on the other hand, and I have spoken perhaps a handful of times. Though he is the one from whom I have achieved my Fae blood and the one to whom I should be ‘grateful’ for that singular favour, he has been uninvolved in my life. I have had few strong male figures in my life, but the one that comes to mind that could have been my father was my Uncle Angus McLeod, someone to whom I was only related to by marriage. He was monstrous to the child that I was. He was as large as a bear, barrel chested and burly. The man resembled a gnarled and wise old Scottish Oak that brooded and kept careful watch over all that he surveyed. I would badger him with questions about every subject under the sun. And I remember most vividly that he would pick me up and dust me off when I was the wee, awkward little lass who would chase ducks and chickens around the farmyard and trip over her own feet.

I didn’t get to see enough of him after Morgienne became my foster mother. I sometimes wish I had been left to my Scot’s kin rather than who I was, but then I would not be who I am now. When the armies of the English came to Dunlauden and during the battle burned our village to the ground, my Uncle Angus stood firm against them. He died doing what it was that he believed and that was defending our lands from those that would subjugate him. He never bent his knee nor his neck to any man, be he commoner or king. I never forgot that about him and still agree with him on that particular count. Perhaps in some way he did become as a father to me in the end.

Muse: Fanny Fae / Faelyn
Fandom: Original Character
Word Count: 441
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What is the biggest mistake you’ve made in a relationship?

I had agreed to marry the wrong man.

It’s not something that I really ever enjoy discussing. I would much rather avoid that particular subject altogether, since it has the annoying tendency to open back up the wounds and deepen them. But since you’ve succeeded in ripping off that particular scab for me, the least I can do is to continue.

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Hmm…I just don’t know.

I have had this journal for a while now. Word has just gotten out that Livejournal will be offering permanent accounts again in the next few months for a limited time. I am debating whether or not it is worth it. I still am rather annoyed about the money I spent several years ago buying a permanent account over on Ancient Sites, and then two years later they folded in the dot bomb meltdown. When they reformed as Ancient Worlds, they comped us poor saps that had paid back in their old incarnation with a year of patron time on the new site.

Does anyone think it is worth it? Not worth it? Of course, they have not announced when or how much yet, but I am assured it is coming.

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Book Review: Plants of Love: The History of Aphrodisiacs Guide to their Identification and Use

OOC: This is a review that I just wrote over at and also for Pan Historia over on my own blog there.

NON-FICTION : “Plants of Love: The History of Aphrodisiacs, and A Guide to Their Identification and Use”, by Christian Ratsch, 1997 10 Speed Press, ISBN 089815-928-8 $19.95 (US)

CONTENT: Christian Ratsch has done it again with his wonderfully illustrated guide to yet another aspect of all things herbal. He pulls together the appropriate amounts of history, monographs including pictures that would help someone identify the plant in the wild. There are over a thousand plants that through history have been or are still being used as aphrodisiacs, and Ratsch rarely shies away from the frank discussion of any of them. He presents the information both interesting and shares enough knowledge to be of interest to the layperson, the Witch, as well as the scholar or the practising herbalist.
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Since I was tagged by and_you_love_me & civ_barbarian

I am not one to be riddled by any kind of guilt whatsoever. Be that as it may, I could not resist the cajoling invitation of my friends, Hsu Danmei and Jackie Burkhart.

Guilt What is yours? Explain yourself
Culinary: Indian food I love food with alot of curry, cardamom or garam masala. I cannot resist the taste of aromatic spices!
Literary: Sun Tsu’s “The Art of War”, Machiavelli’s “The Prince” I am convinced if more people lived their lives by the works of these two authors, the world would be a much better place.
Audiovisual: Bollywood movies They are completely silly and pointless, but everyone in them looks happy, sings and dances and they all dress very well.
Musical: Mozart What more can one say? It’s Mozart.
Celebrity: Gerard Butler I just saw that movie ‘300’. The lead role reminds me of someone, but I just cannot seen to place who that might be…..

Now I tag:-
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to complete this same Quiz, Its HERE.

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OOC: No one will ever believe this but….

I just saw FIFTEEN (15) bald eagles circling over my house!

Heh…I LOVE where I live! 😉

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EM 30 – Is there anyone you would give up your own life for?

Yes, there is. And for the inability to not have done that, I sometimes feel as if there is a hole inside the very centre of me. It is as if there is an emptiness that is so raw that it sometimes burns to the point where it will consume me whole. I wake up and I dream of that love that I once had with Sebastien. It was a love that even time could not erase nor replace. Every angel, every daemon stood stock still and didn’t dare to breathe for fear it would evaporate in a single moment; and I swear that it must have. All I ever wanted was just want someone to love me; and he was that someone. No mother, no father, no other lover, not even the Divine came close to that love. Maybe I’ve already had all of the happiness in my life that I ever can have. I don’t want to believe it, but the time is past. I often wake up remembering that sweet dream, only to realize that Sebastien is gone. There is only me and the memory of what once was, and that a part of me died with him that day.

“You said you’d love me forever!” I cried, my fingers traced a line through the blood that spilled from the gash in his throat. His blood mingled with my tears, and I wanted to will him back. ‘How much is enough? ‘I wanted to scream. But only sobs wracked my body as my lips brushed across the curve of his neck.

“Please, please, don’t leave me!” I whispered; as if my will alone could bring him back. But I couldn’t. My biggest mistake was loving a man with a reputation, a history. Never mind that this history, this reputation had nothing to do with who and how I knew that he was. From the moment we laid eyes upon each other, I knew – and he said he knew, too – that we were two halves of the same whole. We were nearly inseparable from that time, for years to come. We were happy, and those things of his reputation that he was known for mattered not. Gone was the murderous man who was bent only on vengeance. Gone.

Lest you think otherwise, let me assure you that nothing could have assuaged my grief where Sebastien’s death was concerned. A part of me will always be numbed and tucked away, wounded, bleeding and angry that I could do nothing to stop it. Not even in my love of him was to stop what he and I both knew was a painful inevitability. There were those who warned me not to traverse the slippery slope of the emotion of love, that I would lose too much of myself, forget the potential of who I was, what I had been or who and what I could become.

All I knew is that I loved him. I loved him beyond all reason, and it was because of that reason that my grief caved upon me like a thousand ton monolith burying me within it for many years to come. I bought the linen and made his burial shroud with my own hand. Every stitch I put in it was sewn with my tears in between. Even after he was lain to rest and his grave had gone to green, the sense of loss did not subside. I’ve spent the last five centuries missing him wishing there was something I could have done to have saved his life that day.

Muse: Fanny Fae
Fandom: Original Character
Words: 568
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# 59- Mun’s Turn- OOC

I cannot escape Frances MacKay, aka Faelyn or Fanny Fae. She is closely based on my ancestor, Frances Moira MacKay, of Clan MacKay in Scotland. As such, Fanny,is one of my akhu or ancestors. That lilting Scot’s brogue of hers has been “in my head” for a while now. Roughly I would say that it has been since about 1998 or thereabouts. And sometimes she has been there more vociferously than at other times. She always has had a clarity that all of my other characters have lacked. That may be due to the fact that she is somewhat based off of an ancestor, as well as being a product of my very active imagination.
Then sometime later, on a Sunday afternoon, I actually heard her voice on the radio……

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