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Finding Our Way Back to Kemet

Mash_signThis post started with the intention to give those who call ourselves Kemetic a place to look to find resources. I know that I am not the first to talk about this. Certainly Devo Kraemer with the Kemetic Round Table and her blog, as well as Helmsman of Yinepu, Henadology and countless others have stated the same goal.  This post is to essentially open up the dialogue and throw out ideas to the greater Kemetic Community as a very small piece of a much grander puzzle.  If we can just figure out where we are going, we might end up getting something that has a bit less in fighting and is a bit more cohesive.

All of we Kemetic folk are different. We come from different places, have had different sebau  (teachers) It feels a little  bit like that road sign on the set of M*A*S*H* that showed where everyone at the 4077th where home was.   The road sign served as a starting place,  rather a map of  how to get there. More than simply telling someone that there is just one temple, one group or one single right way to get to where to go, it will, I hope that something like this might serve more people without any accusations of an agenda.

The truth of the matter is that civilization was born in Kemet.  The pharaohs were black, and varying degrees of brown and every other skin colour that was known in the ancient world at the time. This is inevitably what happens in an integrated and cosmopolitan society.  By my saying this, it does not make me a revisionist or a racist. Speaking only for myself, my goal is to welcome any and all evidence and discussion, except that which promotes racial hatred and modern cultural divisions that seem to have escalated to all time highs over the last few years.

Like most within the pagan and polytheist sphere, we Kemetics have our share of issues to deal with. We have our dramas and disagreements but overall, I don’t believe it’s anything that cannot be overcome.   So…..we can choose to continue to arguments over religious doctrine or other points of contention, or point fingers about who “stole” what from whomever else, or we can acknowledge the fact that for each or us Kemet is a constant call in our lives.  Just as in Kemet’s  antiquity, I believe that  cultural exchanges and sharing were and are the norm.  Someone who was well-traveled or could appreciate the customs of the people and places that they visited was welcome as a guest and greeted as a hero or heroine when they returned home to share the knowledge that their travels had afforded them.  Being a good, respectful guest was the most important thing of all.  I think the akhu (ancestors) have plenty to teach us on many levels and it is something that the world desperately needs.

I believe that we can have that and be the richer even if all we do is try.  We are most us here because we love Netjer or the Netjeru and honoring the akhu.  The land of Kemet IS Zep Tepi, the First Time.  It is inevitable that it calls to our kas with such depth and intensity that we cannot turn away – not even if we wanted to.

But what about Kemet is it that calls us?

Is it the sophistication of design? Is it the fact that science and medicine, literature and the beginnings of writing were born on the banks of the Nile?  What do we as modern, 21st century people hope to gain by reviving the religion, the culture and the values of that bygone time?  I believe for everyone the answer is different.  Even as a child, I dreamed of a day when more people would realize how wonderful ancient Kemet was and there would be a push to restore temples and bring a language back from the Realm of the Dead.   With the advances in Egyptology and the push to reconstruct events, study DNA and analyze the overwhelming amount of data coming out of Egypt on an almost daily basis, we may very well see some of these ideas and pushes become a reality.

Hedwig Storch via Wikimedia Creative Commons LicenseWhat I want, what I am asking in this blog entry is for people to think long and hard about what it is in Kemet that draws them so deeply.  I sincerely want to hear from each and every one of you – not because I am starting a new group; but rather because it’s something I’ve felt called to ask and to do.  I am not doing this for any group, even though I am currently a member of a group.   I respect and care for enough people outside of my own respective group and have the luxury of conversing with them in a dialogue of mutual respect.  It is of paramount importance to me that this spirit of cooperation continues.    For some, such as myself,  Kemet was a call felt at a very young age that simply would not let go.  For others, it is a reconnection to their own proud history and culture.  For others, it might be something else entirely.   Whatever it is – it’s important.

It is my hope that the dialogue between all  of the different groups can somehow push us a little closer to having a clearing house of knowledge, lists of books to read, online courses being offered for free or at a nominal fee, groups that get together socially for no other reason than to share that interest. Later, we can discuss the potential of boards, or groups on Facebook or Google+ in order to discuss those resources that we find.   Whether any of us views it as a culture, a spirituality, a passing interest or even a fandom, it is my personal belief that  none of us individually knows nearly as much as all of us do collectively.  It is also my belief that if we try we may yet make even more of our dreams about Kemet come true.







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‘E’ is for Eye


Painting on papyrus of a pectoral of the Solar Eye from the treasures of Tutankhamun

The eye has served as a powerful image for humanity for millennia. The Eye, in Kemetic belief, centres around the Udjat Eye – which is that of protection.  Also the Eye of Heru (Horus is his Greek name)  and the Eye of Ra – which are separate entities from Ra’s more than 70 forms – and can function independently of him.

Even in the earliest periods of Ancient Egyptian history and culture , the sun and the moon were often regarded as very eyes of the Great Falcon, Horus. Later the two were differentiated in that the Eye of Horus was the Left Eye or the Moon, while the Right Eye was Ra or the sun. One particular myth which comes to us from the tomb of Tutankhamun, talks of how Horus’ eye was blinded but then restored by Hathor – who is Herself an Eye of Ra.  This ties into the cycles of the moon and of the waxing and waning action of that heavenly body that is ever present above us.

The more well known “Eyes of Ra” are HetHert (Hathor), Sekhmet, Bast, Wadjet, Mut, Meretseger and even Aset (Isis).  The Eyes of Ra were considered to be the protectors and enforcers of divine law. Probably the best known myth surrounding this is the “Destruction of Mankind” where Hathor, the goddess of love, beauty and all that is good is told that Mankind has rebelled and attempted not only to overthrow the Netjeru (gods) but destroy them utterly,  is sent forth by Ra in order to punish them : Thus Sekhmet was born.

These goddesses, known as Eyes also resided in the crown, or uraeus that was upon the brow of royalty.  These goddesses held the power of the King and their power is manifested through him. This is where the function of the  Queens or Great Royal Wives were the stand-ins for the Eye Goddesses, such as Hathor and Isis and insured the protection of Kingly Power and function within the Two Lands.

The Eye of Horus, or Eye of Ra or Udjat Eye were all a part of this greater protection.  There were almost always eyes included within funerary equipment in the form of amulets, and painted motifs on coffins, walls.  The Eye was a major theme to protect not just the pharaoh, but common people as well.  It worked to keep away evil, to insure the path toward the Afterlife of the Duat was kept clear.   The sailors of Ancient Egypt would often paint the eye on the prow of their ships and even skiffs to  insure safe travel.  Even today, modern Kemetics will have Eyes either painted on their vehicles, or in similar fashion to the Fish motif of the Christians, they will have an eye on their car.  I certainly have them on all of our vehicles.

The Eye as depicted in Ancient Egyptian art is based off of the markings of falcons, such as the Peregrine Falcon ( Falco peregrinus ), a totemic representative of the God Horus.  As depicted on many Eye artifacts, whether it be an actual amulet, piece of jewelery or a painted motif, shows the “teardrop” marking near the bottom of the Eye, not dissimilar from the markings on the Peregrine falcon.  A similar line is also found just below the eye of the African Cheetah, who at times can be taken to represent Eye Goddesses that take the form of big cats.

Hieroglyphically, there are several symbols for the Eye. Gardiner Sign list, symbols D4 through D17 either depict the Eye or parts of the Eye.  The attached meaning in Ancient Egyptian to these often talk of “doing” or “making” or one who “makes or does”.  This idea ties rather emphatically to the eye and what it symbolizes as being an active rather than a passive role.  “Here comes protection”, or “The Eye goes forth”, which could be in a protective or punishing type of function.   The Eye of Ra is there to protect and to defend authority and keep the balance and either defend or restore ma’at. Eye is also used symbolically within Ancient Egyptian mathematics as a sort of symbolic break down for the concepts of measurement in the form of fractions.  The Rhind Mathematical Papyrus and the Lahun or Kahun Papyrus, both have tables of unit fractions (1 as the numinator), and scribes would often have these tables for use within their work.

The various parts of the Eye would be broken down in this fashion:

  1. Right side of the eye = 1/2
  2. Pupil = 1/4
  3. Eyebrow = 1/8
  4. Left side of the eye = 1/16
  5. Curved tail = 1/32
  6. Teardrop or downward marking= 1/64

Unfortunately, however, studying this particular diagram does nothing for those of us who are mathematically impaired, no matter how much we love all topics that pertain to Ancient Egypt!


Another symbol of the Eye of Ra in specifics is the sun disk that appears on the heads of solar deities in the Egyptian pantheon, such as Sekhmet, Horus, and even Ra Himself.  The sun disk and the Uraeus at the centre were protective and punishing at the same time.   The sun or Ra moving across the sky could be found in the symbolism of the Solar Barque, which carried Ra across the sky each day. In the Barque of Ra or the Solar Barque, other deities rode with Ra.  Certainly the body of the heavens was equated with the Celestial Cow who travels with Ra.

The symbolism of the Eye is central to Ancient Egyptian belief and the complexity of everything this one symbol can encompass can be both complex and at times confusing. While the Eye was a protector, it was also a punisher of wrongdoers.  While it was protective of that order or Ma’at, it was sometimes difficult to control and would tend to wander.  The cycle of the Wandering Eye returning to the Two Lands to signify that balance would once again be restored was met with great joy and merrymaking. When the Eye is restored and reestablished, we, too, are likewise restored and reestablished as well.



Roberts, Alison. Hathor Rising: The Power of the Goddess in Ancient Egypt. Rochester, VT: Inner Traditions International, 1997

Roberts, Alison. Golden Shrine, Goddess Queen: Egypt’s Anointing Mysteries. Rottingdean, East Sussex: NorthGate, 2008.

Roberts, Alison. My Heart My Mother: Death and Rebirth in Ancient Egypt. Rottingdean, East Sussex: NorthGate, 2000.

Shaw, Ian, and Paul T. Nicholson. The Dictionary of Ancient Egypt. New York: Harry N. Abrams, 1995. Print.

Wikipedia, “The Eye of Horus”. Web.

Wilkinson, Richard H. Reading Egyptian Art: A Hieroglyphic Guide to Ancient Egyptian Painting and Sculpture., p.176 – 177; London: Thames and Hudson, 1992

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totin1After a great deal of thought, I am going to be switching some things over with this blog.   I will be keeping the name,, but I have another domain, (Life Belongs to Sekhmet).  It is my Kemetic name and it would probably be much better if all of the Kemetic related posts went to live there and the fiction, herbal, writing businesss and other types of posts  will remain here. Of course, I am still working on a new banner for the site, even if the wallpaper is a bit familiar.

In short, the work for both blogs will be more specifically focused.   So pardon my dust and I do some rearranging.  I promise to keep everyone posted. It gives me the opportunity toward more specific types of branding in posts. I know that one will be for  the ebooks and business while the other will be more personal.

So look for this space to change a bit over the next few weeks. No doubt I will be doing the same over on Tumblr, Twitter, Facebook, Google+ & etc.   If anyone needs to reach me, they may do so here or can write me at fannyfae at gmail dot com.

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Making the transition

egyptianscribes1It is no secret that I tend to be a bit of a control freak. I do work well with others. I am just a little more reticent about working for them. I’ve been in the corporate sphere and could name-drop if I wanted to. I have also done my share of work with small businesses as well. It has been a mixture of good and bad. I have had wonderful bosses, and worked for executives who were the most unreasonable demons from the deepest pits of Hell. I have had great, co-workers and teammates that instill what that whole sort of culture should be about – and I have had the displeasure of having to work with the clueless and the incurably lazy who were more than happy to let me (or anyone else) do their jobs while they got paid just the same. In spite of all of this, I feel that each experience taught me a great deal.

I feel particularly blessed that right now, I am relying on a job outside of my own employment less and less. It was a hard road and a long time in coming. I believe my ability to do it now, rather than having been able to do it before is because of my having gone back to school. I learned some very good practical skills in media-related areas to be sure. However, more than that, I learned a great deal more and was exposed to some extraordinary teachers who are nothing less than a goldmine of knowledge, experience, and for some, the establishment of what I feel are real and lasting friendships. Through them I learned about good habits and not-so-great ones as well. This is especially true with my writing.

Between the blogs that I write and edit for commercial clients, the freelance camera work and the writing that I do via eBook publishing, it is looking like self sufficiency is not such a far off dream.

So, on my birthday I had to go to work at the job outside of the home. I don’t mind that so much. Today, however, the day after, I am spending time unfucking my habitat and unfucking the Sekhmet book. I think the former is going to be a little bit easier than the latter simply because right now, the book is a nearly 300 page long info-dump of everything I have compiled about Sekhmet and everything surrounding her for the last decade and a half. I confess, part of it makes me rather afraid, because I am putting myself out there to be shredded in the very same way that I shredded the late Dr. Robert Masters over my personal points of contention over his work. I am in his debt, of course, but he and I did not always see eye to eye and there are those who may find my work a complete departure. That sort of fills me with a bit of trepidation. Sekhmet, on the other hand, just keeps pushing that it needs to be put out there. So does my spouse and my son.

I just have to remember that the task in front of me is never as great as the Power (sekhem)_within myself. If I keep telling myself this, maybe I will actually not only start to believe it but live it, too.

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Sekhmet Ritual

shrine1a1Yesterday (February 4th), marked the day that Sekhmet calls to Her shemsu (Followers). Last night I celebrated a rite to Sekhmet with heka, meditation and prayer. Offered before Sekhmet’s naos was ight, incense and pomagranate liqueur. It was a time of re-dedication and reflection on numerous goals and areas of personal focus. I was able to write some heka for the day which I will share here. This is only one part of the Rite. The other parts are either Oathbound or are not going to be published until the Sekhmet book is released.

Nothing and no one shall disrupt my peace.
Nothing and no one shall disturb my peace.
Nothing and no one shall destroy my peace.

I am the daughter of Sekhmet-Mut, daughter to the Queen and also to the King!
My birthright is that of the lofty and high.
My heka is strong; I shall not succumb to your machinations
My heka is strong; I shall not be turned aside nor turned back
You cannot interfere with my progress
I have already been established within the Eye of both my Mother and my Father
All the Netjeru know my name!
The Akhu have heard and shall always render their aid
My heka is the heka of my Mother
She who is the flame of all Power!
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I do believe that this date, not accidentally, falls just one day before the Uncreated One, [Apep] is brought into existence on February 5th, according to an Ancient Egyptian Festival Calendar that I assembled years ago. I rather buried it even before I switched ISP’s and now it rests on the website that I am co-owner of, In reflection, it occurs to me that we, the shemsu of Nejter, are called to right to uphold Ma’at and to do what is right around us and what is within our power to do, even if that ‘right’ is merely getting our lives straightened out and all things working and in order. While that sounds like something that should be second nature for all of us, somehow in the process of living we put off, we shirk, or we pretend not to see what we know in our hearts must be done in order to preserve ma’at.

At any rate, I have a number of dates for various Sekhmet and HetHert (Hathor) festivals that I am working with. It is my goal to continue these throughout the rest of the Kemetic year. I am not necessarily doing the same dates that my Sekhmet sister, Aubs is doing or exclusively from a list that Candace Kant has published from a number of sources that was recently posted on one of the Sekhmet groups on Facebook. To this list, which mirrors the one I already have, I have a few more of from my own research. Unlike Aubs, I am not currently focusing on healing rituals for others at the moment. The only exception would be for emergency situations, of course. My reasons for not offering to do the same types of ritual work for others is this: I have done the stint as an herbalist and healer for Sekhmet, often to my own detriment. I now have to be wise enough and experienced enough to know when it is time to take a step back and heal my own self and my life. No, that isn’t foreshadowing any sense of ‘DOOM’; however, it is nonetheless necessary.

So both yesterday and today have been days of much reflection and planning and serious focus on both my online client work, school planning for next semester and the various publishing and filming projects. I admit, my shrines have been pretty much open the entire time with candles burning nearly on a constant basis. In the wake of the latest bits of cleansing and clearing, it feels as if a great weight has been lifted and much of the extraneous “junk” has been cleared away. It’s good to have that sense of being more organized and a sense of purpose. For too long I’ve been working on the agenda of others, and now it’s time to focus on my own. That alone has made the time spent very well worth it.



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Kemetic Round Table : Heka . . . ‘vuh Headache

My friend Sarduriur has written of the most thorough discussions on the concept of what heka is and what it isn’t. Grab a cup of coffe, sit back and enjoy a nice long read.

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B is for Bennu Bird

Bennu Bird by Jeff Dahl, courtesy of Wikimedia Commons

Bennu Bird by Jeff Dahl, courtesy of Wikimedia Commons

“I am that Great Phoenix which is in Iunu/Heliopolis
I am the one who assigns what exists.
What does it mean?
It is Eternity and Perpetuity
As for Eternity (cyclical time), it is the Day
As for Perpetuity (linear time), it is the Night”
(from Spell XVII, “Prt Em Hrw” the “Book of Coming Forth by Day” or “Ancient Egyptian Book of the Dead”, R.O. Faulkner Translation)

The Bennu Bird is the predecessor of the Phoenix of Greek mythology. This symbolic representative of Creation is tied to the word weben, which means ‘To Rise’. The Bennu or Benu Bird is tied to the gods Atum, Ra and Wasir (Osiris); which would explain this deity being featured wearing an Atef Crown. The Bennu bird ties to the Benben stone which also resided in Heliopolis. Atum, according to legend rose up as the Benben in the Mansion of Benu in Heliopolis. The Benben Stone itself was believed to be constructed of and representative of the solidified semen of Ra-Atum as the Soul of Ra when He copulated with His own hand to Create the rest of the known Universe. Later the Hand was attributed to various goddesses in the Ancient Egyptian pantheon and in the person of the Queen or Hm.t Niswt of the Pharaoh.

A portion of the Book of the Dead of Nakht depicting the Bennu Bird

A portion of the Book of the Dead of Nakht depicting the Bennu Bird

The Bennu, according to the Metternich Stele, created itself from a fire that burned on the sacred Persea Tree located at Heliopils. It was believed that the Bennu bird would build His nest of twigs made of incense, more specifically, myrrh (Commiphora myrrha) in the Persea tree and die. In Heliopolis, it was also believed that the sun rose of the Bennu to illumine the sky and died five hundred years, the Bennu Bird would fly into Egypt from Arabia, carrying in His beak an egg composed of myrrh , representative of His Father’s body. It is this egg, of the Great Cackler, Geb, that is left on the Primordial Mound. It is on this Mound that the sun, Ra is again reborn.

One of the earliest appearances of the Bennu Bird is in the Pyramid Texts of Unas as a yellow wagtail and then later, in the Book of the Dead, the bird seemed to have changed shape into that of a Gray Heron (Ardea cinera) . These birds are quite prolific here in the Wapsipinicon River Valley and every time I see one in flight or pausing looking for food in the many waterways and tributaries in our forests, it serves as a breathtaking reminder of the Benu bird.

Bennu Kite

The Bennu Kite that hangs in Userbenu’s room.

Perhaps on an unconscious level when we moved our family from the city out to the wilds when my son was all of six years old, it was the draw of the Great Bennu. It was the Bennu who became a part of my son’s Kemetic name of Userbenu, or the Strength of the Phoenix. No parent wants to consider that their child will experience difficulty, but my son latched onto the imagery of the Phoenix almost as soon as he became aware of it. To this day, a a giant hand-painted kite that we found at New Pioneer Natural Foods Co-op almost 20-odd years ago, hangs on the ceiling of his room. It has, I think served as a reminder for him and for the rest of us the important image of the Bennu Bird.

Such powerful imagery is important for us as humans, even when we are kids. There are few books that really are tailored toward Pagan, or especially Kemetic parents and their children. One of the best books that I have ever seen on the market, and one that I bought for my own son and hope to hand down to any future grandchildren is The Cry of the Benu Bird by C. Shana Greger tells the story of Atum and the Benu Bird in a delightful way. Of course, it does not go into much of the aforementioned more erotic aspects of that Creation Myth, but it does talk about the Creation of the other Netjeru in a way that children can appreciate and understand. It’s beautifully illustrated and gets young minds thinking about the Netjeru and their potential relationship with Them and the rest of the world.

Normandi Ellis put the idea of our eternal rising from the ashes of those parts of lives at every stage. like the Bennu Bird, so beautifully. Her translation of the Ancient Egyptian Book of the Dead has often served as a poignant reminder for us and for those whom we love.

I have entered fire, I become invisible; yet I breathe in the flow of sun, in the eyes of children, in the light that animates the white cliffs at dawn. I am the god in the world in everything, even in darkness. If you have not seen me there, you have not looked. I am the fire that burns in you. To live is to die a thousand deaths, but there is only one fire, one eternity.”
– Normandi Ellis, Awakening Osiris

This idea of a Self-Created One, is central to Kemetic Religion. The Bennu Bird and the Phoenix have proven to be a powerful symbol or representation of the Divine for many throughout history. and Pagans and Kemetics today. We are each of us born, we live our lives, and we die. But in that life that each of leads there are series of births, lives, deaths and rebirths. None of us has been the same person we were when we started out or even a few years or even months or weeks ago. This is true not only of our personal lives, but our work lives and spiritual lives as well.

Subtly, we understand the process of cycles, of becoming of being and final release. We also, most of us, have various ideas about what comes next, what comes after. Though we may never see too far down the road, we always have that sense of inner knowing, of the cycles always continuing until we, like the Bennu bird, can be reborn once more.


“Benu-bird (the Phoenix).” Amentet Neferet Egyptian Religion. N.p., n.d. Web. 15 Jan. 2014.

Ellis, Normandi. Awakening Osiris: A New Translation of the Egyptian Book of the Dead. Grand Rapids, MI: Phanes, 1988.

Faulkner, Raymond O., and James P. Allen. The Ancient Egyptian Book of the Dead. New York: Barnes & Noble, 2005.

Shaw, Ian, and Paul T. Nicholson.The Dictionary of Ancient Egypt. New York: Harry N. Abrams, 1995.

Veggi, Athon, and Alison Davidson. The Book of Doors Divination Deck: An Alchemical Oracle from Ancient Egypt. Rochester, VT: Destiny, 1995.



January 19, 2014 · 6:19 pm

Questions for Tess Dawson

Mine was one of the comments that were censored by Ms. Dawson. This, however, really does not matter in that I have a habit of keeping record of absolutely everything I post, including commentary on blogs, on Facebook, etc. This is a very good habit to get into, btw.
Ms. Dawson, et al will note that none of the questions posed by Grim’s Wolf have been adequately answered. While some may feel that she is, “0ne of us”. I however, adamantly and resoundingly disagree with that sentiment. Disingenuousness is never appreciated in any context at any time. Being somewhat of a celebrity in the Pagan / Reconstructionist etc. communities also does not give one a “pass”.

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Dear Tess Dawson:

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Sekhem Pendant

I just got my new pendant from my friend, Aidan Wachter, who does some amazing pendants in silver. He also does custom work This is a one that I helped design. I received it just before Yule. To put it mildly, I absolutely love it!

He will be offering this particular piece in the future on his website which can be found at.

Aidan’s work is top notch, the highest quality silver and he has very reasonable prices along with just being a generally very cool person. Check out his work!

EDIT: I have been indirectly coaxed into trying my hand at the 30 Day Talisman Challenge as proposed by author and podcast extraordinare, Andrieh Vitimus. My spiritual sister, Ashtoreth Eldritch became involved and it looked like a great way to start out the New Year. And so now, I am under the wire in telling Andrieh, “Hey! I want to be included!” So here I am.

The next post in this blog will likely be the ritual that I have been writing surrounding the dedication of this particular amulet. I have also been toying with the idea of video blog that I will upload to YouTube as well.

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